(On)Bir y\u0131l oldu!
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Koca bir y\u0131l ge\u00e7ti Mam Hasan! Seni g\u00fcne\u015fin g\u00f6lgesinde, seni ay\u0131n karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, seni ya\u011fmurun kurulu\u011funda topra\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne b\u0131rakal\u0131, koca bir y\u0131l ge\u00e7ti.<\/p>\n
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Nas\u0131ls\u0131n? \u0130yi misin?
S\u00f6ylediler… C\u00fcmb\u00fcr cemaat al\u0131p g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fler seni. \u201cBir cenazesi oldu\u201d dediler, \u201cyedi evvel, yedi ziyade; k\u0131rk millet, kurt, ku\u015f, b\u00f6rt\u00fc b\u00f6cek topland\u0131.\u201d
Seni topra\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015flar… \u201cAlt\u0131na\u201d dedim \u201cbir kal\u0131n minder vereydiniz. Minderin ucuna tabaka, tabakan\u0131n i\u00e7inde en sar\u0131s\u0131ndan Ad\u0131yaman T\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fc.\u201d Biliyorum b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar beyhude. Zaman kendine al\u0131yor c\u00fcmle hayatlar\u0131 ve biz, o zaman\u0131 aln\u0131m\u0131zda yazg\u0131, koltu\u011fumuzda tasa, tasam\u0131zda yas(a) gibi ta\u015f\u0131yoruz. Giden gitmi\u015f. kalan kalm\u0131\u015f; neylersin!<\/p>\n
\u201cBahar gelmi\u015f Nurhak Da\u011f\u0131 otlanm\u0131\u015f<\/em>
Bizim elde bayram g\u00fcn\u00fc kutlanm\u0131\u015f <\/em>
Obalar da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f dostlar yadlanm\u0131\u015f <\/em>
Eyvah ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n yaresi bir ho\u015f\u201d<\/em><\/pre>\nHat\u0131rlad\u0131n m\u0131? Mahzuni b\u00f6yle s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor. O Nurhaklar ki kepenk sermedi\u011fin ta\u015f\u0131, kovu\u011funda su i\u00e7medi\u011fin kayas\u0131 kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. O Nurhaklar ki Mam Hasan, Elbistan Ovas\u0131\u2019\u0131n\u0131 etraf\u0131na\u00a0 \u00e7ekilmi\u015f ku\u015fak gibi duruyorlar orada. Orada ne kuzu kula\u011f\u0131, ne \u00e7oban d\u00f6\u015fe\u011fi, ne karanfil k\u00f6k\u00fc.
Karanfil k\u00f6k\u00fc getirirdin hat\u0131rl\u0131yor musun? Herkesin harc\u0131 de\u011fil onu bulmak. Da\u011f\u0131, ta\u015f\u0131, kovu\u011fu iyi bilmek gerek; kekli\u011fin ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131, tav\u015fan\u0131n aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131; ak ta\u015f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde ak g\u00fcvercinin izini s\u00fcrebilmek gerek. Ne kald\u0131? Bilmiyorum.
Seni yat\u0131rm\u0131\u015flar so\u011fuk topra\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne; \u00f6yle dediler. Ne alt\u0131nda t\u00fcyl\u00fc bir Mara\u015f hal\u0131s\u0131 ne omuzlar\u0131nda \u00e7al\u0131mlan\u0131p giydi\u011fin karas\u0131ndan bir sako ne de alt ucunu alt\u0131na al\u0131p \u00fcst\u00fcnde ba\u011fda\u015f kurdu\u011fun Elbistan i\u015fi \u00e7oban ke\u00e7esi. Hal budur Mam Hasan, hal budur! Geldin \u00e7\u0131plak, gittin \u00e7\u0131plak. Gayr\u0131s\u0131 zaten yak\u0131\u015fmaz insana. Ne getirdin ki ne g\u00f6t\u00fcresin! Fakat bir isimdir arkanda kalan. Hangi harflerle yaz\u0131l\u0131r ad\u0131n? Bu de\u011fi midir b\u00fct\u00fcn mesele? Meselende bir misal\u0131m \u015fimdi.
Oturmu\u015f film yaz\u0131yorum. Film yaz\u0131l\u0131r m\u0131 Mam Hasan? Filmi, Kurtkulak Da\u011f\u0131\u2019n\u0131 perde yap\u0131p, Yo\u011funs\u00f6\u011f\u00fct \u00e7ukurundan seyretmek varken niye yazar\u0131m? Bilmiyorum. I\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu kadar\u0131na yetiyor zahir.
\u015eimdi seni anarken \u015fu serin Z\u00fcrih bahar\u0131nda, g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcmden ay s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyor ya hi\u00e7 tad\u0131 yok. Y\u0131ld\u0131zlara c\u00fcmle salsam g\u00f6r\u00fcr m\u00fcs\u00fcn? Ve bilmedi\u011fin alfabeyle okuyabilir misin beni? Peki sen? Bir bulut \u00fcflesen ya\u011fmuru d\u00fc\u015fer mi klavyeme? Bilmiyorum…
Elbistan\u2019\u0131n, Ankara\u2019n\u0131n ve dahi K\u0131r\u0131kkale, K\u0131r\u015fehir, Mucur, Kayseri, P\u0131narba\u015f\u0131 ve Malatya yol \u00e7at\u0131n\u0131n ve yekten yol olmu\u015f \u00f6zlemlerimin \u015feritsizli\u011finde, bozk\u0131r\u0131n kenger dikeni eziyetinde herhangi bir vas\u0131ta oluyorum. Seni ta\u015f\u0131yorum durmadan; kova kova, damla damla, deli divane. Orta yerde bir semah d\u00f6n\u00fcyor Mam Hasan; g\u00f6r\u00fcyor musun? Tek ayak \u00fczerinde Temir A\u011fa, habire topra\u011f\u0131 topukluyor; toz duman, ferman ferman.
Kurumu\u015f dere yata\u011f\u0131y\u0131m
Ne ku\u015flar u\u011frar semtime
Ne tilkiler dil uzat\u0131r serinli\u011fime
Bir ba\u015f\u0131may\u0131m
Bin ya\u015f\u0131mda
Adetimizdi, unutmad\u0131m. Masada, kapak \u015feridi k\u0131r\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f bir uzak diyar i\u00e7kisi. A\u00e7aca\u011f\u0131m… Bir kapa\u011f\u0131 sana, bir kapa\u011f\u0131 bana. Geriye kalan\u0131 ortaya b\u0131rakaca\u011f\u0131m. \u201cKim i\u00e7er?\u201d deme! Yoklu\u011funda varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m; varl\u0131\u011f\u0131mda yoklu\u011fun serho\u015fa mail.
\u015eimdi, kapat\u0131p c\u00fcmleleri, \u015fi\u015feyi a\u00e7\u0131yorum. Bundan sonra kayd\u0131 i\u00e7ime d\u00fc\u015fece\u011fim…
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